...and boy are my arms tired.

Right? Time flies?  haha

So Im working, working, driving, studying, cooking, cleaning, and NOT sleeping.

We are right in the middle of prime wild fire territory here in Washington state... I drive down into a valley full of smoke every school day. Thank god for Claritin!

Grad school classes have started.. and I am only half as lost as I expected to be. I am so tech challenged... fire walls, statistic programs, word issues.... fun fun fun!

The shorties are transitioning well into their new school...and ALL 4 of my teenagers are acting very teenager-y. Yup the Twinners, Thing 1 and Thing 2 are officially 13 now. Bring on the tylenol... more grey hairs, and more calls from BOYS.

Well, my homework awaits... catch you on the other side.

PS  Hunting season... aka hunting WIDOW season is about to begin. Im sure I will be back soon whine a little more :)

Zzzzzzz

OK, I confess. I fell asleep in the bath tub yesterday.

Not my proudest moment...but I didn't drown. That's an accomplishment, Right?

I will admit that I had been up for 36 hours ( with a 20 minute power nap), worked both jobs, had a 4 hour newborn emergency resuscitation class, a spec ed meeting, wrote (most) of my first grad paper, went shopping for those lovely "yes, you just spent $300 on back to school supplies... but now we need this crap too" kid lists. Made dinner...with dessert (yummm store bought cookies) and still have not lost all my hair.

As the Wise One says.... "WINNING!!!"

Things settle down and get into a routine...sooner or later. Dear Jebus- please let it be sooner.

Ohh... and send My Guy back soon. I need a hug- and someone else to blame the excessive snoring on :)

Footing

I think I might maybe have stepped in it a bit. I've always had a stubborn streak, and now with all my "grown up like responsibilities" the boundaries appear to be a little blurry. To me. Everyone else seems to have no problem at all letting me know when I have crossed over one of those thousands of subtle little lines that I inevitably cross.

Friend/ Girlfriend/ nurse/ mom/ daughter/ granddaughter/ woman....I think I just need a list. One of those big circle ones where its obvious what is In Bounds, what crosses over/ overlaps, and what is definitely outside the realm of "yea, don't go there."

I'm sure it would add hours to my sleep, aid my digestion, and keep the worry lines at a minimum acceleration rate. Might even cause World Peace.

But until then, I will just putt on my Wonder Woman under-roos and keep doing the damned best I can do. Whining and crying only when necessary...or when it will reward me with coffee or chocolate.

Wish me luck.

Exhausted

Its a good thing my nick name is Wonder Woman. I wonder often...

So all my little plots and plans seem to have lumped together, and all at the same time. New Job...School starts for the Bigguns, Grad school starting (with appropriate computer issues), the Youngguns are changing schools, My Guy in the Hospital (and out Thank Jebus), $1000 van repair bill... Bad news about my Gramms....just to name a few of this weeks highlights. None seem really high right now.

And constant stress, this Mom/Nurse/caretaker thing is never ending. I need a "pause" button. breathe and restart. hahaha

Crazy crazy crazy... but I've already started to dig in, sort out and persevere.

Lasso of Truth in hand, here I go!!

Knocked on my Ar$e

Soooo, its been a broke down van (still) 2 Birthdays, visit from the Ex Mom in law, 2 job interviews (yea, I know) Night shift workin', My Guy and his baby girl both needing hospital care... My Grandma is struggling, and me back on all my allergy/ asthma/ damn.it.would.be.great.breathe.again  meds kinda week.

I'm about over that.

Good grief. So much for Summer time fun!!

Well, the medical stuff is all working out. Damn it- healthy. Shouldn't be a lot to ask for, but that's all I want right now. People shouldn't have to hurt. That's all I'm saying.

The mom in law visit went OK- always a little awkward, but brief. Van stuff....still praying for a miracle. Pray with me people!!

Night shifts are kicking my schedule loving lifestyle- I just can seem to get a grip on my sleeping needs. The Night shift ladies are fantastic- its just the sleepin'!

OK... now for the GOOD stuff. I was just offered my own district- back into the school nursing game :) Sooo excited! Its a bit of a drive, and an itty bitty school district- but I haven't been looking forward to "workin'" in a while :)

I might have even recruited a LPN to join me in the magical world of Public Health...<insert evil laughter here!> One more for Our side!

Since I am ALLLL about changing ...and about being all excited... School starts on the 27th!!

Mid August? No WAY~

Ok so I just realized that the worst thing about working night shift is that you lose all track of time and space. You go to work one day, and are off another. Get home and sleep all day~ just to realize its been 18 hours since you last ate or drank anything. The mid-day run to to Wally World ends up beginning at 9pm and you enter in daylight and leave in darkness. With your 6 year old. Because you took your watch off and are loopy. Time is just relative, right? 

So I lose out on Best Mom Ever award again. Thats ok- it would look awful strange up there next to my Meanest Mom award... but their room IS looking cleaner :)

So much has been goin on in these weird little spurts of semi-concious living that I have been trying to maintain. Friends and family in and out of the hospital for less than joyour reasons. Monster home repairs (and trying to figure out how to scrape enough together to pay for them) half finished projects, painted walls, and tree removals. Even Clifford has had better days...poor ole van, refuses to start. Cha-ching. 

I keep telling The Herd that we need to get things squared away before the Zombies show up. Im not ashamed to use any means to get the chores done! :)

Blurrrrr

Yes, Night shifts are kicking my arse, but make a good pay check. There must be some kind of middle ground, but I am yet to find it.  8,000 hours for August, and a whole 4 scheduled for September. Screwed doesn't even begin to cover the thoughts running through my mind. 

School starts on The 27th, for all the Herd and me. Dual Masters, Full day FIRST GRADE!!, 3rd grade, NEW SCHOOL 5th grade, Twinner 8th graders, and high school Junior and SENIOR. This year.

Excited, anxious, nervous... broke. I hate school shopping, especially when I have just shuffled jobs. Oh but it all works out, right? Riiiight. . .   come on people, even if you are just in my head. A little validation please.  :)

So, the house is falling apart. Way much to work on, fix, repair, figure out. Its a mess, the kids are driving me nuts with the "I'm bored!!" and "when are we going to the beach, The store, The water park? I'm a bit sleep deprived and loopy.

The eX mom-in-law is planning a visit, my Heathen Friend from Texas is coming too, Dr SmartyBritches should be making another trip just for my NonBirthday...AND I must (vital to the precarious balance of my near state of sanity) find some My Guy time. All in the next week.

So much for the prescription to "get a life. Stat!" I think I might have a bit too much of one!

Grumble grumble grumble.